I just wanted to update everyone since it’s been 6 weeks since the end of my treatment, and I go in tomorrow for my 6 week check-up.
It’s been a journey, that’s for sure.
Again, I would like to thank all my supporters. I do have to ask for your help financially, and I am almost at my goal. If I can reach my goal, I will have the financial part behind me, I can start focusing on healing, and I promise I will only provide updates and not beg for donations. It’s hard to focus on healing sometimes when you’re worried about how this all gets paid for.
6 Week Checkup
With that said, tomorrow I go in and get checked to see how things are progressing. Now, I did go in and see the E.N.T, 2 weeks ago, and he gave me the all clear. But I went to see the doctor the other day about a prescription, and they told me I was going to start having nerve pain.
Pain in the Neck Area
Well, just about a week ago, I had started having a lot of pain and swelling in the back of the throat. Now, I am having pain around the neck area. It really feels like a bad sunburn. To the touch, it hurts. But when I really put pressure on the neck area. I do feel a pain that is much deeper. I am hoping that this is all part of the nerve recovery.
Sharing this Information
These are little things that I haven’t heard from people recovering from the same type of cancer, this is why it is so important to write all these things down, make videos, and share this information. I believe people need to know these things as they go through treatment as well. I truly believe all of this is for a reason and many people will benefit from these experiences.
How I am Doing
In terms of how I am holding up, I am doing much better than I was. Remember, just about a month ago, I weighed in at 130lbs. Yes, I had lost a total of 90lbs since my diagnoses in 2014. I had lost 60lbs since my hospital stay on April 29th. The hospital stay really did some damage physically, if you look at the overall picture. I lost a lot of weight, I had the Tracheotomy, the feeding tube, and the IV Pick line put in. After that stay, nothing was the same.
I really had to stay focused, and it’s been hard. Your mind just wanders and focusing takes a lot of effort. It’s like, I really try to make myself stay in the moment, but it’s really easy to start feeling sorry for myself. This happens when I look in the mirror and see what is really happening. My bones poking out, my face looking all saggy, and no desire to eat or socialize.
These are all danger areas for me. So I have to really stay on target and tell myself that this is only temporary. And I need to go through these things so I can share that despair, feeling with others who will experience the same things with their recovery. So, I really had to make the effort and force my self to eat, and eat some things that aren’t good for me but they help me gain weight. Oh, that’s right. When you need to gain weight fast, I’m sorry, but it’s the foods that aren’t that healthy that do the trick. You will not want to remain on that type of diet, but for a few weeks, it won’t turn things upside down.
Other than that, I have been a lot more active. I’ve been getting out with my kids and doing some fishing and going to the local festivals. This really helps with just getting back to the main stream of things. I walked into the hardware store (my old job) and people almost didn’t recognize me because I had lost so much weight. But non-of-the-less, they were very happy to see me, and I received so much love from everyone.
So, I don’t want to make this too long, but I just want to thank you all. I am really close to my Financial goal on my donation site, and once reached, I will stop begging for financial help. I know, I feel bad doing it, but I need help. It’s very hard – 🙁
Tomorrow, I will share the outcome of the doctor visit. Don’t worry, I won’t write a long, detailed article, but I will let you know what the status is.
Thank you always for the support, prayer and financial.
I love you all,